I sat through an amazing experience last night. It was not so much an experience I am new to, but one that has been lacking in my life. You see, we went to church last night to see the vision for ThatChurch of Cabot. I am so thrilled at what is going to go on there, and at how the Lord is going to move through that city in a magical, miraculous way. I am thrilled for Trina and Keith and their children. I want so badly to be in that type of environment at church. One where there is no exclusion. One where the purpose is to love the lost and grab the lost to bring them in, so that they don’t miss out on the opportunity to experience a love beyond anything they can fathom. One where the people love to hear the Lord speak and they allow the Spirit to fill that place. One where the music fills the hearts of the people (it can’t help but do that because it’s so loud), but this is a place that you are communicating with God and it doesn’t matter what else is going on around you. You are open to hearing the words that are being spoken through God, to you, and you have the opportunity to feel His presence, not just in the areas around you, but in your own being. It’s amazing to feel. The beats of the drums and the guitars and the words are all one as the Lord talks to you and tells you things you may or may not have known, but needed to hear again and again. He spills out His love and you are filled in such a way that tears run from your eyes and you feel as if your heart might burst because the emotion is almost too much. There is a Spirit who crawls into the tiny crevices of your hidden places that you really don’t want others to see, for fear that they might think less of you, and he releases you from that bondage. You are free to worship, free to be open about the things that keep you bound and tied, free to hear Him say, “I love you because I love you, not for the things you do or don’t do, but because I made you. I love you and forgive you; every time you fail, I forgive. Every time you try to run from me, I will run to you and bring you back into the fold with complete acceptance. I have sent my own baby to die in your place and that’s how much I love you. I love you, I love you. Do you get it? I love you and you can’t change that, but I give you the opportunity daily to change your ways and make your days completely about me. I am a jealous God and I don’t take the back seat gracefully. I am a loving God who wants the very best for you and I will show you how to get to the place in your life that you can’t live one day without seeking me, talking to me, and listening to me. Your radio is available to hear songs that praise me, you can shut off the TV and turn on your head, eyes, and ears and see my words talk right to you. It’s a matter of when you do it, if you will do it. I will be there like the father waiting for the son to come home. You can’t do anything that will make me love you less.”
As I write this, it’s not something that I feel I never knew. I knew it, but as a reminder to myself, I have to re-establish my daily walk. The key is daily. I have to do this daily. Just like I have to wake up every morning and take a shower, fix myself up, and have my coffee, I should feel that need to seek the Lord. It should be such a need that I can’t leave the house until it’s done. I have the time to sit and do such trivial things that don’t matter, but when I neglect my creator, my best friend, the man who saved my life, my life is completely wasted for that day. Just saying a quick prayer can be the best part of my day sometimes. It is the one time I’ve called my friend and told Him what’s in my heart and how I want him to be a big part of anything I do.
So, I pray that today I will take out my own selfish time and make it time for just me and my Lord; that I will seek to hear from him and get away from the things that take my eyes off of him. I will get out of my own way and let Him through. SPEAK, Lord, I hear you, I need you, and I desperately need your hand on me today.